Two Lines

So on May 18th our lives changed forever when we got our two lines.

Many women often say that they knew they were pregnant before doing their test, I on the other hand was not one of those women. My body likes to play tricks, so I wanted evidence before I could believe anything. Since getting married we decided that we were going to let God decide when to expand our family and so when it was the right time, it would happen. But for anyone who is trying to conceive, the monthly cycles of waiting and then disappointment when nothing happened, can be quite trying.

Having taken pregnancy tests before which have come back negative I was terrified about getting another negative. You don’t realise how much you want something, until you think you have it and then realise you don’t. {Think Rachel from Friends when Phoebe tricked her into thinking she wasn’t pregnant, when she actually was and she found herself really upset}.  There were signs that I could be pregnant but I didn’t want to jinx anything and I told Afam that we should wait at least a week after my period was due, before we take a test and then and only then would I entertain pregnancy thoughts.

Waiting a week would have taken us to Sunday but by Wednesday morning I couldn’t take it anymore and caved and went to Boots and bought a pack of two tests. I was tempted to just do it at work to get it out of the way so that I would know, but we had agreed that we would do pregnancy tests together, so I took the tests home and let Afam know that we had two pregnancy tests available IF we wanted to do a test today.

Wednesday evening we had gone to Life group at church and all through the meeting I was thinking, “we should do a test, I mean I could be pregnant and not even know it, Yeh we should do a test. But I’m scared. What if I’m not pregnant. Let’s wait. No let’s do a test.”  So on the way home, I convinced Afam that we should do a test that night.

As we had two tests if it came back negative we could always do another one in the morning.

Let me tell you it was the longest 3 minutes of our lives and when it was time I couldn’t even look. We got up together to go to the bathroom and Afam was in front of me. I had my eyes closed and then I heard ‘You’re pregnant!!’. What! ‘You’re pregnant!!’ he shouted again. I opened my eyes looked at the test and there were two lines.

I burst into tears. We hugged. We prayed and thanked God for this miracle of life. I couldn’t believe it was finally happening.

Did we sleep that night..not really lol! But it didn’t matter!

The following morning I did the second test just to ‘make sure’ and sat and watched how quickly it turned positive. It was quick. Two strong lines in less than a minute! We were having a baby!

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The following weekend we went away for a few days to visit some friends and decided to buy a clearblue digital test so that we could see the 'Pregnant’ on the test and how far along we were.

 

I tell you it’s a lot less stressful taking a pregnancy test when you know it will be positive!

So now the journey begins…

We started recording weekly pregnancy diaries at week 7, so that we can remember and document the experience.  If you fancy following the journey in vlog form, check out our channel on Youtube.  I’m a bit nervous doing belly shots, but maybe from next week I will post one up here.

This week we enter the last week of the first trimester {where has the time gone!} and thankfully I haven’t been too ill. During the past three months I have dealt mainly with tiredness, nausea and bloating. I haven’t lost my appetite, which is good because I am enjoying this whole ‘eating for two’ thing and my hair and nails are growing like crazy. There have been some weird happenings during the first trimester, mainly weird dreams and smells, but all in all it hasn’t been too bad.

This week is a busy baby week as we meet our midwife on Wednesday for a check up and have our 12 week scan on Thursday.

Looking forward to seeing how Jnr is doing! He better have his house in order, as we’re paying a visit!